UPS AND DOWNS OF 2007,

i wasn't planning on sleeping early for tonight so i decided to review back every single entry that i have written on this blog.its pretty funny how i have manage to survive those days which i find full of ridicule.yet here i am,ms vainpot,typing her last entry(not) for 2007,closing her journey which is full of setbacks but yet wonderfull memories.year 2008 is pretty much still hours away though. :]

UPS AND DOWNS OF 2007,
highlights :

14 febuary 2007
ok confession:
...the box of choco's that alfiee gave was the FIRST valentyne present i ever get from a guy.

13 april 2007
EVERYTHING ABOUT TODAY.happy birthday to me.oh well.it was the best BASH birthday ever!!.the 16 punch and slaps was as per usual.the best part was when they force chunks of ice into my uniform.extreme cold lahhh.imagine ice INSIDE your uniform?.and messed up my oh so pretty hair. :]another best part came when pull me in shower room,on the shower tap and yes,i was drenched! :]but i pulled my friends too and together we were drenched. :]as i am so clever to anticipate the wet BASH,i bring my P.E t-shirt. :]

15 april 2007
i've just added this aussie guy named haikel.we chatted through msn and stuffs.he's hot mind you. :]and so as per usual,i talked to dhiya about this haikel and stuffs.dhiya was like,haikel?.aussie?.chinese+malay?.omg!!!!!!!!!!to make it short.haikel is dhiya's childhood friend.its been 4 years i guess but mr.hot(haikel) still remembered his childhood friend,dhiya. :]u noe.i did bring tears of joy to dhiya's eyes.she misses haikel much and he did too. :]im seriously amazing aite?. :]so coincidental yet a seriously lovely tale.

21 april 2007
first, i flirt with you until i fall for you. ya. thats right. i know im bad. i very malu to tegur u at school. i move on to do other silly stuff till i realise it later and regret but was a little to late.i didnt know that at the first place.i juz leave you. our frendship suffer.i just lost everythingi didnt bother to apologize.-him
so u smsed me and stuffs and yah i did fall for you.badly.but then i realise that u moved on.i have a diff perception of you and yah i did intend to throw the thing u gave away but somehow it sticked around.it took me a while to move on.actually i only started moving on after i saw her profile so yah.i guess we're just too confused tt tyme.-me
how can i not apologized?.can you punish me or sumthing?.please?its in the past but i couldnt forget it.please tell me u hate me?.can we be friends again?i thought all this while you pretending and the fact is you hate me to the core.-him
it happened that night.the long convo that rake the past.i told him a few tyme tt i've moved on.but he just kept pesterin to be punished.i guess i have to lie again.the sight of him made me wobble.sometimes i did have this thought in my head,"he moved and and is merry,but im still here at the same spot longing for history to repeat again".i guess i have not moved on.i guess im still longing for that late night calls and sweet messages.perhaps i just need a lil attraction.sorry dude but i just have u quiet-en u down just now.i lied.i have not moved on.but i accept the harsh reality of life that our story ends tragic.glad to see u have moved on with her.i hope she'll be there everytime u need someone to hold on to.im not in search.im not waiting.i'll just let time fly by and be merry.

13 june 2007
camera baru beli hilang beb.tak sempat petik pon.MCM SIAL.fcuk.fcuk.fcuk.

18 june 2007
i decide to talk a bit more bout my first date with fir.hehes.note.the following entry may sound a lil mushy and stuffs.so go stick your eyes somewhere else if the post does not appeal to you. :]
i came out from ze train.i swear i can hear my own breathing.and i swear i can feel my heart-throb. yes.nervous.saw him.saed hi.went to ps.hungry.so we made our way to mcd.bla bla bla.ok let's just go to the intresting part shall we.all this lamenting is making me bored.ehes.
ok part i LOVED most :]we went to fort canning.ahas.he was so cute.offered to carry me up the stairs.but end up pulling me up the stairs instead.i can't stand the tiredness nemore.so decide to just sit on ze bench.gosh.my legs were screaming.i backfaced him and stretch my legs.just then i felt his hand hugging my waist.:))thenn..i guess i will just keep the rest of the story to myself.well my 3 jambu's have already known the rest of the parts or should i say every single detail.ahas.
it was the first presence i felt from a guy.although i noe this relationship won't work out.i'll still preserve it in my memories forever. :]like how i still remember the first gift from a guy was from siddiq.and my first valentyne gift from alfian.
My head is saying "fool, forget him",My heart is saying "don't let go"

15 july 2007
he smokes.he drinks.he's on drugs still.he's a ex ganster.he likes me.he looks so odinary.who would have noticed?

17 july 2007
i superlove today.bestfriends had taken back their words,whatever they claim about is,and saed sorry.its been great to have you guys.thanks for supporting me. :]being forever bonkers and since its our last year in westwood and i guess our last chance to keep the bond strong,bestfriends and me have made our day extra special and memoriable everyday.gosh today is just do superloved! ok we're mean.we played with te sec ones and have been sacarstic towards them.i feel guilty enough but its just the enjoyment of being a senior in the sch. ^___________^today was superloved too as,WE FALL OFF THE CANTEEN BENCHES.ahas.people jeered and looked.but its just too fun to be embarassed.we are having so much fun that the bench got unstable and down we go.weeeeeeeeeee.attracting attention?nahs,we're just having fun.

21 july 2007
cause i seem can't to tell if you're fiction or fact.i just can't seem to be true.it ended last night.
i learnt,if you're not ready to commit,do not make empty promises.giving someone hope to change,is a big responsibility.i failed to be positive.my mental strength has run dry.love come second,trust come's first.i manage to be honest,but not true to myself.i realise,is' is just someone special that i seek companion to.not more than that.
let's make peace,rest our mind.love is a word that i just can't seem to define.one straight line as we first begin,now two fork road lines within.so let's just put the past behind now,and start anew.although i know it is hard to forget,the memories of me and you.

5 august 2007
4th august was rotten.hereby i declare that 4th august is a FCUKING SHIT DAY.baybeats spoil my day.ey jantan kau mcm sialan.knncb !ey pompan kau juga.a boy's heart is not meant to be toy around la mofo

13 august 2007
"mr michael chua i aim for A1.don't dissapoint me okay !" i said in verge of crying."nurinda,you got D7" michael saed and smile cheekishly."WHAT?!" i yelled,my heart pounding fast."No,u got A1!"i swear i squeak and yell and even almost roll on the floor.the emotions run wild.super wild.4 students scored A1.many got A2's.oh congrats to all !

30 august 2007
everything today is a bitch.i didn't finish prelim eng paper 2 in time.i lost my thumbdrive.and art is making me CRAZY siak.have i mention that I LOST MY THUMBDRIVE?!
i was crying when frantically searching for it.i walked all the way back to jurong point and to library.i searched my bag and room.darn it lah.i was lucky i saved all my work in my computer.if not prolly i'll fail Os as i can't submit art.

3 september 2007
IM STIL SUPER SICK.pftt.and oh.laiha dear,dhiya haven noe about ze 'crush' thing yet.and ou promised its btwn us only ok.gawd im blushing when im typing this

29 september 2007
GEADUATION DAY!
my graduation present for 4foche. :Dim super glad to move on to a new phase of life after secondary sch,but nevertheless feeling sad to leave all those past memories behind.i manage to pluck up my courage and say good luck mad for his Os.gawd that was really an exhilirating move.hahs.i didn't manage to catch up with siddiq tough.(history lah :D)AND THIS ACTION THAT I DID NOT DARE TO DO WILL LEAVE ME REGRETTING (?)it's too risky.seriously.but at the same time i don't want a repeat of me and syid incident.it's hard to confess to a boy but nevertheless its hard too to know the truth one day,that he use to like you but he move on.futhermore its graduation already.i will not be able to see him like i use to every single day(?).take the risk and spare the embarassment or regret ?regret i guess.im not a risk taker in this kind of situation.i'd rather get hurt than to be the center of attraction.i think i like you,well i already do.

16 october 2007
If I have a lover Who loves me How could I break such a heart Yet you still get my attention right from the start,mily.

17 october 2007
saya sayang awak banyak-banyak cam langit.44 caliber letter straight from my heart,duabelaslimapuluhsembilan.

6 november 2007
i jumped straight to bed after much dickheads dances at school.initially i wanted to cave in and sleep till next morning but staring at walls makes me bored.so here i am,posting this:
AKU DA HABES O'S SIOL !
to add on to my already joy-ness,STARBUCKS BEGINS ON MONDAY !now i have like 5 days to enjoy my freedom.planlist:
1)SHOPPING2)SHOPPING3)SHOPPING4)SHOPPING.......
hahas.

12 november 2007
starbucks,first impression.it was ok,except for that coffee tasting which destroyed my tastebud partially.and oh i was required to taste milk too.I ALMOST DIED.ok that's too melodramatic.but seriously,it took a lot of courage to even pick that cup up.and when they say i should have told them i cannot take milk in the first place,i was already sulking inside

15 november 2007
mr boyfriend,there's a subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.im sorry we had to break it this way.pretty much yes, its over. don't fret too much,the fault pretty much doesn't lie in any of us,its just that the feeling is not getting in there,(i believe its just me in this matter)consider this bond burn but our friendship still stay true yea.let's just be the way we ought to be.
i learnt,not to take friendship personal,not to choke on your own guilt.i suck at this.


so there you go,the ironies of 2007.nevermind the entries after 15 november,they're not of any significance much(except for they are full of syarif's that is.*giggles*)oh well,i'll be 17 in a couple of months time.besides that i will expect a bday celebration this year*hints* and also have grown a year older,i hope that i'll be more matured in handling situations and overcoming problems that i will be facing.like i've said before,i've survived 16 years of shit,10 more years of it will be a pea.*winks*

anyway,i've come up with a resolution for myself for year 2008.for the whole 16 years in my life,i've pretty much come across many resolution that is left hanging and undone,thus,i'll make sure this year's will be short,simple,sweet and do-able.so here goes,vainpot 2008 resolution,

MAKE POEPLE HAIR DISSAPEAR FROM THEIR SCALP AND RELOCATE IT TO THEIR NOSTRILS AND EARS IF THEY MAKE SHIT IN YOUR LIFE.

aww pretty good aye?hahs.nah,thats just a genuine thought i have while thinking of my resolution,but its a pretty awesome resolution,you reckon?ok here goes,after much fickle-minded(ness) deliberation,vainpot's 2008 resolution,

VAINPOT WILL ALWAYS BE PATIENT IN HANDLING SITUATIONS BECAUSE SHE BELIEVE THAT NOTHING IS FOREVER.