its all so confusing,bloody confusing.so many choices,so many opinions,so many talks,so little time.but i'd have narrow it down into 2,so its either HIGHER NITEC HOSPITALITY DIPLOMA or MDIS TOURISM AND HOSPITALITY PRIVATE DIPLOMA.yet still i have this RETAKE RETAKE RETAKE chanting in my head.

i'll make it through,
i hope.

this i have to add on,
for its killing me,srious shit.
all my life i have always been surrounded by problems after problems but never did once(as of i can remember)i shove it to another person,be it a close(vry) companion or my siblings.okay,i admit,i must say maybe i did share rantings and whimperings but not shoving a whole chunk of details to the other party.
(otak aku semakin sempit)and why?cause recently,i have been fed shit(information).no sriously.not that im a person that cannot practise empathy,symphaty for others,but this is just too overwhelming for me to swallow whole.first came a boy(frm the past) which suddenly came back to the limelight and start to befriend me,acting like history never did happen.for that,i can still deal with.but what i can't really take in is the fact that he told me about the things that have happen after our history,things that is so ovewhelming and intense that i think i must have suffered from permenant brain damage after hearing it.and for the record,yes it involved "...",srious shit.
next,a boy.no,more like a man,who suddenly out of no where whimpered about his ex which now is married and is living happily,and how he regretted much not giving her happy-ness,and all that sorts of shits.now now,i symphatise him,i really do.but what have all this got to do with me?i mean,i don't even know you man.now now,don't go around telling people how egoistic i am,cause im just being sensible here.

think of it man,im seventeen for goodness sake,for all you know i may have not even had my first kiss yet,(giggles)yet still people come to me,talking about how they have loose their virgins,and how they loose it after seeing their ex's wedding photo's on friendster(siala frienster siakkk-).oh come on,you know what i mean aye?

gawd this entry is hilarious.