i must admit,everytime im struck by the surrealism of a situation,i'll stumble and fall.
i'd fall so hard,i could hear it crashed from inside me.lately,i've always felt that the weight of the world was on me and im alone.there's no farhaan,no spice girls,no dhiya,and my parents are even out of the option.but soon after,i'll pick myself up and im back on track again.
i've never really felt happy for long.maybe for just a moment,but not really for long.
to speak truth,i dont think i've ever been happy.though i'd laugh,appear cheerful,joke around;i've never really felt truly happy,or even pleased with myself.oh well,i was never pleased with myself.

decency,for better or for worst meant?